This version of myself, who is trying to act as if because I've been reminded, yet again in my life, that time is something that not all of us have.
I’m sure I will still get very upset about the experiences Taime will now not get to experience in this lifetime as a human. And yes, because of my beliefs I know she’s here. But as we know, knowing something and accepting something are two very different things. She had so many dreams, she was only 22. I’ve realized as I reflect on my year that her dreams, were the dreams I used to dream. Things I secretly wished for but thought I was too fucked up to have. I know that I’ll be grieving for a while. I know that I’ll be triggered constantly, especially as the trial continues to unfold over the next year and a half. I know that this grief journey is for life. However, I’m starting to shift into the mindset where I want to maintain the vibration my sister used to in this world. She was constantly going out of her way to help others, she was always volunteering, always giving back. I want to help her let of her attachments to this world with peace.